I’ve been a bad girl..

Cause I still smoke. A lot, like eeh two packs a day. It gives me some stupid form of comfort right now. Which I know is total bullshit, all it gives me is a nasty cough, bad breath and smelly hair. And lets not even go into all the scary diseases. So I need to quit again. Just because someone else treats me bad doesn’t mean I have to treat myself like shit too, right?

In order to quit again I think I need to perform some kind of closure ritual. You know, forget about all the bad stuff, banish negative energy and move on. So I just might scrape together my last pennies tomorrow and buy some sage. Excellent for cleansing, been used for ages. Then when the time is right I will cleanse my house, myself, have my final cry, say a little prayer and move on. Cause there really is no other option..

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2 thoughts on “I’ve been a bad girl..

  1. “Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.”

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