Cause I still smoke. A lot, like eeh two packs a day. It gives me some stupid form of comfort right now. Which I know is total bullshit, all it gives me is a nasty cough, bad breath and smelly hair. And lets not even go into all the scary diseases. So I need to quit again. Just because someone else treats me bad doesn’t mean I have to treat myself like shit too, right?
In order to quit again I think I need to perform some kind of closure ritual. You know, forget about all the bad stuff, banish negative energy and move on. So I just might scrape together my last pennies tomorrow and buy some sage. Excellent for cleansing, been used for ages. Then when the time is right I will cleanse my house, myself, have my final cry, say a little prayer and move on. Cause there really is no other option..